Wednesday, March 21, 2018

Commit Everything to Me......

Dont you love when you start an entry, and then somehow delete a whole paragraph, and then the entire post!  I mean really?   Whine session begin now.......  Seriously, what a morning!  Results of struggling!   I am feeling completely overwhelmed right now, as I am building new facets of the biz, securing current opportunities, expanding, developing programming for the Otters, seeking to build a partnership, and suddenly WHAM!  Fraud on my accounts and I am now the proud, well maybe not proud, owner of overdrawn checking accounts, and fees accruing because of checks returned because of said fraud.   AAAAARGH!   And there is no food or money to feed my boys until pay day.  Feeling thankful for Friday.  But wait, do I have food for today?   Hmmmmm.....   Amd whine session over.     I needed that.  As the tears rolled down my cheek.      The truth is I have a great deal to be thankful for.  My sister for one.  She is one of the most generous people I know.  It amazes me sometimes.   
And my boys, Leo, Aeries, Nanuk, Jasper and Sebastian, love her.  She sends them treats.   Recently, we received a box for Easter.   In it was this book.  
It was one of those things —-Cool Book.  Leaf through it when it arrives.  Put book down.  Move onward.   
This morning, in the midst of chaos.... see whine session above..... I pick up this book.   I need to spend time with God.  
And the first thing I read is:  
‘commit everything to me and you’ll be a success’. Proverbs 16:3
Wow!   That is a pretty amazing promise.   Because God, I am drowning right this second... I dont know if I can feed the boys tonight, let alone me. 
I want to pull everything together.  I have a pretty cool vision for my team and business.  I would like it to grow.  
It is yours because you gave me the vision.   Show me where you want it to grow.  

Sunday, February 25, 2018

Rodeo Run

Yesterday, I completed my first 10K of the year.   It wasnt pretty, amd was definitely more walk than run (getting back to racing shape is tough!),  BUT I DID IT!      I have been struggling with training.    Honestly.  It is a struggle.     There.  I put it out there, and now I am seizing the choices I need to make to run my Marathon successfully!      And Now, Lets go do it!!!!!           This run actually taught me alot about myself.  There were several places I could have easily cut the course short (it would have affected no one, but me) but I reminded myself that I am an example, a leader, a coach.   The young ones I work with on the Otters, need role models who don’t cheat.  Leaders who have integrity, regardless of where they finish the race.    And so, I continued happily.   And I learned a great deal!     The race at the Back of the Pack is a much different race than the front.   I met amd cheered on some pretty amazing people.   People chasing down challenges that the front of thr pack could not understand.  Please understand I know the challenges at both ends of the race, now firsthand, and know how hard each works.   I also know it is disheartening to finish after the finish line is cleaned up, when the water and race food is competely gone, and there may not be a medal.  I also know what means to be chasing that gold medal, or to place in the top five or ten, to PR to beat an age group record.    At the BACK, the herd has thinned.  You cannot hide in the crowd (good and bad); you are completely exposed.    I cheered for other runners, applauded their efforts, said words of praise as well as encouragement.     I am glad I struggled yesterday.  I relearned compassion.   As I coach, it is important.   
         These volunteers were making a bridge to run through at a water stop.   Volunteers really do make the race!   They are a source of encouragement and enthousiasm!   Although Houston tapwater is less than desireable, I am thrilled they worked to make this race happen!                    
Rodeo Run is run on part of the Parade Route to usher in Rodeo Houston!   This is a big event here!  These horses were waiting for the Parade!       Thank you Rodeo Run 2018, for a great run!!  I look forward to seeing you next year! 

Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Every step moves me toward my goals......

A friend shared this on his FB wall, and it really hit home today.   I have successfully been a coach potato when I should be training.  No wait, I have not been training to my level of expectations and opted for the ‘object at rest’ part of the program.   
It has been a tough two weeks.  Houston was COLD.   Not that I haven’t seen cold before, but it was COLD!   Below freezing temperatures and a non-heated, not insulated apartment contributed to my attempt at staying warm, and not my purposeful training.   
And so today, I headed out to tackle three-miles. 
This was by far one of the most difficult runs EVER!   Not because 3-miles is tough, but because 3-miles is tough.   Or can be.   My feet hurt, my body hurt, i was hungry, i was thirsty, i was tired.............
And knowing I needed to reteach myself how to be comfotable being uncomfortable I ran.   Slowly.  But I ran.  
I focused on tackling this, one step at a time.   I focused on foot placement and picking up tempo and slowing down, and doing mini-sprints or strides randomly down the street, AND the last half-mile, I purposefully and intently picked up the tempo to challenge my run to the finish.   
Because I am chasing down a BQ.   And while the entire run was far from perfect, I was teaching myself to endure, to challenge, to commit and to make it happen.  
It is a process.   And tomorrow is another day to learn, amd to train.   All of this will get me to the finish line.  Even with socks!